There are a million things I could say about this woman. None of them seem quite big enough to express how I see her. The original chaos controller-- long before i even became a mom. The original Queen of Caffeine. 

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She is the only reason I know how to keep going on the days I really want to give up. Shes the voice in my head reminding me I have made it through worse. 

She taught me that sometimes strength doesn't roar... it whispers, " you've got this." 

 

Being a mom without an earth side mom means I carry her with me in every moment of happiness, sadness, and chaos. 

 

I get it now more than ever. The worry, the laughter, the mental load no one sees, and somehow, she always did it with grace-- Way more grace than I seem to do it with. 

this page, this idea, this concept is for you, my angel.

 

I love you mom.

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These kiddos and I sure do miss you. I wish you could have met the girls, you'd say "Yup kay, this is payback x2"